Missing My GRAMS

My mom calls me this morning needing a copy of Grams senior picture I have because a cousin of hers is wanting it. I just dont know...I feel like it really cant be. The most amazing woman ever is gone. I know life without her will never be the same. I feel like I didnt get enough time with her, I wish I had more time with her. I wish that I could have went and seen her more often in the past few years...

I saw her the last time a year ago in October when me and my brother went down just the two of us. When we left I hugged her so tight and told her how much I loved her and how much she ment to me and I think we knew that would be the last time we would see each other and as I walked away she says little Grissom will never know who I am and I said oh no Grams I will make sure he knows who gramsie goo is ... I will tell him all about you. That was the last time I saw her.

I thought I was prepared for her to go but I wasnt. She was truely an amazing woman, that I can only hope to be half like her. I know that she is in a better place and in no more pain.